Domestic

I have felt so much change and settling lately.
Things are good.
Not perfect, not without stress, worry, conflict, and frustration... But good.

I have delved a bit deeper into my hobbies, created a relaxing and sacred space to myself in my home (my room - I cleaned it finally... haha O:-) ), and have been really enjoying my new job. Of course there are a few things i would like to change there but thats any job and I've come to terms with that. I like what I do.
I feel happy at work instead of like I want to punch the next person who asks me about chicken when I am CLEARLY up to my elbows in whipped cream...
It has sparked my interest in real plans and excitement for the future and opening my own bakery. But lately I have also been imagining and pining over all the jobs/careers I would like to experience in my life. Lots come to mind.... pastry chef (check), baker (check), business owner (sort of check?...), food writer, food critic, professional psychic and tarot reader, author, candlemaker (check), philosopher, mother, photographer, artist..... what's a girl to do?


The last 24 hours especially have prompted me to look into how I can actually make money and 'break' my way into food writing. I can't imagine getting paid to do that... What a dream.

The candles are going well. I enjoy making them, and I enjoy the response from people when I present them with their candles. Also, I got accepted at a nearby farmers market this summer and I will be selling them there. I really look forward to that.
(Check out the updates to the website = www.wickedwaxcandleshop.com )

New Developments

Well hello again.
Yes, I did seem to fall off the face of the Earth. But its ok, I found my way back on it again.


In the meantime I have been working on starting a small natural candle business.
I am making 100% all natural, Earth friendly soy candles. I'm pretty excited about it.
If you love candles (and the environment) check out Wicked Wax Candles:

The website shop is still a work in progress but it will be up and running very soon.
I created a Cafe Press merchandise store chock full of neat Wicked Wax merchandise, check it out!
Buy some for your home and some for your fellow candle-loving, Earth-respecting friends!

Thank you :)

Rough Patch... With a Bright Spot.

So I officially hate my job. I just can't stand being treated with disrespect day in and day out. The people are so rude, crude, and inappropriate there. The job itself and the money are not bad, its the daunting ride to work everyday where I dread walking in the door and dealing with them for another 11 hours. If I didn't work so much, I don't think it would be a problem as much as it is now. My life revolves around it. I go to work, bust my hump for 11 hours, then come home exhausted and collapse, I go to sleep and wake up a couple hours later to do it all over again. I have no time for anything else. No hobbies, no date nights with Alex - we rarely spend quality time together anymore, no reading, no working on my lessons, no time to call friends and family, no time to plan the wedding, no time to play with the dogs, no time to cook myself food, no time to clean the horrific mess of a house and bedroom, no time to spend with friends, no time to do laundry, no time to even do my hair to make it look somewhat acceptable. It eats up my life, and if it was a job that made me happy I wouldn't mind so much.

On the flip side, I feel guilty about hating it and always wanting to quit because I know how many people would kill to have a job right now. And I was one of those people for a long time before I even got this job. This is the sole reason (other than the money, which isn't really that much anyways...) that I stick it out and keep on keepin on.

Contrastly, Alex had a meeting with his school advisor and we learned he wouldn't be done by fall 2010 like we anticipated he would. So we took a week of discussion and consideration and weighed the options. We could either wait 3+ years to get married, or we can just have it whenever we want now that he will be in school anyways (we were waiting for him to be out of school for the wedding originially).

So... we decided to have it this fall instead!

We worked it out with the reception hall and we set our date, and I made our save the dates.
We mailed them out a couple days ago! I was so excited about it and I really enjoyed making them. I designed and printed out the actual cards, and then printed out the envelopes. Then I sealed them with copper wax and a 'B' seal. Very old-fashioned feeling, and I love it.

Alex and I are getting married on October 3, 2009.

Woo!

Easy Goins

2009 got off to a slow start this year and I wouldn't have it any other way! Alex and I stayed in for the night and watched Elf and tv until midnight. It was a nice relaxing night. I had the day off, so we went to lunch and then to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I haven't had a date night out to the movies in a long long time. It was great! If you had to pick just one movie to see for the entire year, I would highly recommend it even though it was probably the most heartbreaking movie I have ever seen.



Everything is smooth sailing. Hope everyone had a wonderful and safe new years :)

OJ Freak

For some reason, I only crave orange juice when I wake up in the middle of the night very thirsty. Then I chug a glass of OJ and it is orgasmic.

Otherwise, I don't really like to drink it.



Is that weird, or what?